Monday, June 4, 2012

Being satisfied

I find myself wishing a lot lately. 

Wishing I were thinner, wishing my foot didn't hurt, wishing it wouldn't rain so much, wishing the laundry was finished--and would stay that way. I wish that summer was here already, wishing the kids were better at doing their schoolwork.

The thing I most wish is that were moving. Not necessarily packing and driving to a new place, but that we knew the direction God has planned for us--that we were actually going places, heading in a new direction.

God isn't finished with us here yet and I think that is what irritates me.  I think in my own feeble mind that I have learned all I can here and it's time to move on.  I long to be settled. I long to be able to plant an apple tree and see it grow from a young sapling to a productive tree.  I long to plan and design a home that will be comfortable with my things in their places.

I'm ready, but God says wait.  God has said that for a while now and I get so impatient just waiting. 

In the movie "Fireproof" there is a John Waller song called "While I'm waiting" that really has made an impression on me. I think about it when I get impatient.  I think to myself, am I still worshipping the God who is in control? Am I serving those around me? Am I supporting my Chaplain/husband? Am I teaching and instructing those children/gifts that God has given me? Am I preparing them for what God has in store for us next?

So, while I am impatient to go, while I want to move on and I'm feeling so dissatisfied with where we are, I will wait. I will serve and I will worship and I will learn to be prepared for the next step. Whenever it may come and wherever it may lead.

2 comments:

Needles, Fabric, Chisels, and Wood…Life is GOOD! said...

I believe I am where God thinks I should be, but then I have had lots of years to reach this state of mind. Even so, now that we are permanently located in SD I will see if I am up for the challenge of giving it all over to God's will, not mine. Wishing and praying that you will find the peace of mind you need to wait out the next adventure.

Apple said...

I thank our Lord for finding this blog!! so many things relating to ... crafts! health! impatient yet wait on the Lord and dont let impatience or wishings take priority in ones life. Thank you for taking the time to communicate with us out here in the world! Love how the Spirit works, in all things. God bless all who visit this site.

 

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